Missy

attn party goers!!

2005-06-24T02:15:45Z

I WILL BE APT. SITTING FOR MY COUSIN IN QUEENS JULY 1 - JULY 4TH SO I AM HAVING A "COME WHEN YOU WANT....WITH WHOEVER AND WHATEVER YOU WANT....AND STAY AS LONG AS YOU WANT" PARTY!!!

FEEL FREE TO SHOW UP ANYTIME....JUST CALL MY CELL FOR DIRECTIONS! :)

THERE ARE A FEW TINY RULES HOWEVER:

1. THERE IS A CAT SO IF YOUR ALLERGIC OR WANT TO BRING SOMEONE WHO IS ..... TAKE A PILL BEFORE YOU COME.

2. I RESERVE THE RIGHT TO DISMISS ANYONE I CHOOSE FROM THE PARTY ((ITS MY COUSINS APT AND I AM IN CHARGE SO IF YOU GET OUT OF CONTROL ITS TIME TO GO HOME))

3. NO DRUGS. CIGERETTES AND DRINKING IS OK....((PS BYOB OR WHATEVER YOU WANT SINCE I DONT KNOW THE DRINK SITUATION AS OF THIS MOMENT))

OTHER THEN THAT....COME ON DOWN!!

this is sick

2005-03-15T11:27:21Z

this is sick..........tim sent me this last nite cause he thinks this guy is a genius..... i dont.

http://www.savetoby.com/

back to the future....

2005-03-13T17:58:43Z

so i went and saw the middle school play last nite.....

it was cute....they did a nice job....it made me sad though.....
i started to think about when we were in middle school........lol i walked around and found my old locker, and tired to remember my way around the halls.

it also made me feel old!! all the kids were like running around hyped up on sugar..........were we really that nuts?? i hope we were cause they looked like they were having fun......

oh well...back to reality........time to start my term paper for psych.........god i feel old.
oh well..........

cuteliloud1 @ 2005-03-03T23:41:00

2005-03-04T04:42:49Z

cant stop smiling.................

havent been this happy in like for ever and a day...............

i am glad you can make me smile.

ok bed time.

nite

large boughts of happness

2005-03-02T11:25:34Z

have you ever stayed up talking on the phone, knowing you have a paper due and have to be at work early.....but just kept talking b/c it was the best conversation you have had with this person

and the whole time all you think about it the butterflies in your tummy...........

well thats what i did last nite......and it was the best nite in a while.......and now........i am late for work...must go...bye

happy v-day!

2005-02-14T14:08:39Z

happy valentines day everyone!

--

so i havent written in a while.........

not much is new.....today i am sick....so i called into work today.......i am missing our valentines day party........oh well at least i wont be around all that junk food to eat it........besides i already got my valentines day present......well at least i think it was one.......i am not sure what it was to the giving end......we shall see.....

ok i have to go eat.......starving......

have a good day!

-melissa

been a while

2004-12-06T12:51:40Z

its been a while......i dont feel good...

girl issuses...........they suck. dont want to go to work today. but the pay check is there. so must get up and go.....be strong.

nothing is new........well kinda idk i am just in a haze right now.

ok gonna go

bye

blast from the past......

2004-10-22T22:26:24Z

ok...so i was at work...doing a "workout" with my kids...

and we were listening to this weird tape.

and the first song that came on was the sun has got his hat on.......hip hip hip hooray....

the sun has got his hat and he's coming out today....now we'll all be happy hip hip hip hooray......

and i started to do the dance.............thats all i wanted to share..lol

ttfn

cuteliloud1 @ 2004-10-17T10:56:00

2004-10-17T14:57:47Z

i am worried about him.....

this is the second time he has called during the nite....saying he misses me and home.

sigh what to do?!

SWEET FREEDOM!

2004-10-09T12:45:03Z

ITS OFFICAL SHE HAS LEFT THE HOUSE.......

AHHHH 3 WHOLE DAYS TO MY SELF!!!

NO "TAKE OUT THE GARBAGE, CLEAN THE KITCHEN, DO THE LAUNDRY"

JUST WHAT EVER NOISE I WANNA MAKE!!!!!! ;)

AHHHHHHHH I FEEL SO ENERGIZED......SO I HAVE GONE TO CLEAN MY ROOM!

-LARGE kiss where ever u want!

shes fucking annoying!

2004-10-02T15:18:27Z

omg what does she think? that i am dumb!??!?! that her walking into my room and unplugging my phone line to my comp......is gonna stop me?!??!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

shes so god damn annoying!

why does she always have to be mad at me? is there like some new rule i dont know about?!?!?!

sigh....gotta clean dont wanna. gonna do it

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

:(

2004-10-01T00:02:54Z

so hes seeing someone else......

tech. he just broke up with me............

life is over.

the end.

new hair

2004-04-10T22:56:03Z

my tipper gore hair cut!

i know that face a poem by meissa ronsiek

2004-03-22T06:24:04Z

he watches the movie like hes in it....and knows the characters......wishing what was happening to them was happening to him.....

he says hes happy but that face says other wise.....

i know that face...i make that face....

its the face you make when ur thinking of the one you love....

the face i make when i think of him....

but hes thinking of her....

and not me....

why do i long for him to think of me that way....

to make that face when he looks my way.........

he did once...but no more....

why cant he love me again??

WHY??!?!?!?!?

the end!

my new family memember!

2004-03-08T05:44:19Z

YAY! my aunt deirdre got married last friday!!! her and her girlfriend....terri got married...i have an aunt terri now!

go legalized gay marriages!!!

i am sooooooooooooooooo excitied!

WOOHOO!

lol alrite...thats all for now!

the men of my life....

2004-03-05T03:51:01Z

lets see...

i have the gay best friends....cause apperently most men in my life turn out to be gay...which isnt a bad thing cause a gay guy is better than no guy at all.

then i have the best guy friend thats in the fricken bronx......and i miss all the time.

i have the boy who stole my heart a long time ago who is such a great friend now....

i have the boy who recently stole my heart...and has no feelings for me....and is the most selfish person on the planet.

i have the boy i like...who likes me...and isnt willing to commit....

the boy who i have no attraction to and has no attraction to me....but we have one of the most normal relationships i have ever had.

then i have my slightly absentie father....who idk whats with us....

so basically i have never nor will ever have a normal relationship with a man.....

the end..have a nice day!

the mexican italian ivasion!

2004-03-03T19:55:30Z

yeah so i spelt invasion wrong i think whatever....
newhoos
woke up this morning and remembered we are getting a new drive way and stoop today

YAY!
no more rocks getting caught when i back up out of the drive way.

so i look out side to see whos doing our drive way and its my landlords brothers....and their little mexican friends.

so since 6 am i have had old italian men and young mexican men running around outside my house.

its ummm intresting.....yeah.

sigh closing work again today! grrrrrrrr tomorrow too and then YAY off friday.

ooo but i get to see the nice boys at work today! i love my few good shoprite men......ooo that rememinds me i have to update my profile for shoprite men to stay away from ........ and ones who are good.

alrite tata

-melissa

looooooooooooong time

2004-03-02T17:57:16Z

well its been a long time since i have written .... i dont even know when the last time i wrote was?!?!

so much has changed....
i am bruntte...for neone who doesnt know
though most of u have seen me so....

and recently i have decided to change.

i was sick and tired of being sooo passive with these 3 idiots and follow around like a little lost puppy and making sure they are happy.

basically i am gonna be up front from now on....it doesnt matter who its with...which bothers me cause i used to be really up front with people just say shit to thier face and didnt care. but i some how i turned into this little quiet person who didnt want to say things to these people.....

all that changed yesterday...i told the ass how it was. and how it was gonna be. lets just hope he gets it through his dumb thick head.

sigh oh well

-melissa

oh fuck!

2004-01-08T07:25:31Z

wasnt scared.now am scared....hes scared or is he?

sigh oh shit!

merry early xmas to me........even if it is thanksgiving...

2003-11-28T07:42:11Z

thanksgiving is a good day/was a good day.

food.
mom.
aunt lilian.
more food.

grandma.

but the best part of my day just happened.
i got the best gift i could ask for.

closeure....and a friend that i lost.

its new and diff. but it works.

now to only slove that other pesky problem.

ttfn.
me

sigh

2003-11-18T03:51:24Z

i dont know whats wrong with me...why do i have to always learn to learn the hard way?? i mean i know whats gonna happen i have done this before and it was bad the first time and yet i still do it now.

i have such a habit of repeating my old mistakes....idk whats wrong with me....i need something...to just make me get up and go...and live.

the one thing that does make me do all that is...well idk not a "good reason". i mean it is...but its not gonan change the other stuff...the other stuff is more important...sigh idk.

i just want to be normal again...i want to be awake again...and to feel that getting up in the morning and doing the things i am supposed to is worth doing.

ne suggestions?

i want/need help.
nething will do .....

-me

my day

2003-11-11T20:29:17Z

well again i didnt go to class today...but for the very good reason that my mother owes me big time! at 6 am i was awaken to be asked if i would go get my nana and take her to the hospital and get my papa and bring them home.

me being the perfect daughter that i am, of course said yes....so i came home and called my teacher and said i didnt know if i was gonna make it to class....which i didnt, cause around the second episode of dawsons creek this morning i fell asleep.

well i woke up about a half hour ago and just took a bath....now i am really hungry since all i ate today was a bagel about 5 hours ago.

and then i get to go to work and be there for 6 hours! grrrrrrr i hate today...even if i did have the best nap ever.

ta melissa

owwwwwwwwwww

2003-11-06T19:32:27Z

owwww i slept funny *as i have been for a while* and my neck is all tense and out of wack...i cant move it one way or the other....

ne one know someone who gives good massages??

owww

AHHH great now that kid is talking to me again.
why do random people think that if they im u and say hey whats ur name that automatically u some how have an attraction to them.....

grrrrr
pain and fustration...............

need money need to call christine and get my atm card!

bye

update

2003-11-04T03:33:43Z

i havent written in a while
not much to write

not much is new

like a boy
he doesnt like me
like another boy
dont know if he likes me

2 boys like me, dont like them *like that neway*

school...its school....

friends...dont see them much
work....always there....unless i am at school or sleeping

thats my life...

ta

i am a baaaaaad girl

2003-10-09T13:53:28Z

ok so i have been kinda sick lately losing my voice coughing up a storm.....and yesterday i just coulndnt deal with going to 3 class and then 6 hours of work.

so i emailed my proff and told her i was sick and didnt want to infect the class.

so after work last night it got really bad **my coughing** and mommy wants me to go to the doctor..........so when i woke up this morning to say bye bye to her, she was like " put on ur alarm to go off in like 45 mins" so that i am up in time to go to my 930 class and then my 1100 class and i told her i ll be ok...(plus actually having to move and reset the alarm would have completly woken me up...which i didnt want.)

so i had a nice dream wich was awoken by someone rubbing my hand *chloe* and i look at the clock and what time is it??????????? 930! shit i am late, what am i gonna do etc...so i stop pancking and email my proff and tell her that i lost my vocie *which isnt true* and that i was sorry and i would be there next week.
then i called the evil one *my english proff. who scares everyone* and lowered my voice and made it sratcy and low and told her that who i was and she told me to stay home **which is a miricle cause that woman wants u there no matter what**
she asked me if i knew neone in class that i could get a handout from and i told her and she said she would give it to them.......and we hung up.

annnnnnnd soooooooooooooooo since i have gotten out of classes...and i have no work today!

DAY OFF!!!!!!!!!

i like my day off so far..i got all the sleep i needed and know i dont have to go to hell**work** at all...execpt to pick up my pay stub from last and this week...........ok

i am off to laze around the house!

tatta

missy